And my world comes crashing down

Lately I haven't been feeling like myself even though I don't show it, I'm literally tearing into pieces on the inside. It hurts that I can never shout out what I really feel curse my fear of causing problems. I've never had issues like this before, this pretty much all started when I moved to Hawaii and started going to public school. The drama, stupidity of others, lack of challenge in school courses, everything in my world just shattered. I never had to deal with friends who were suicidal (who never bothered to tell me anything), friends who were completely naive (I don't even want to associate with that person anymore), friends who are so childish it makes elementary students look mature. I could just keep going by I'm not going to.

For once in my life I never felt like this...its really breaking my heart. I don't know who to trust, who to believe, who to turn to... I'm just completely lost. No one seems to bother telling me anything, well you know what I give up. I'll just keep playing like I'm happy since I don't know what else to do. I know though that one day...just one day, I'm going to regret the choice I've made.

Slowly but certainly, I'm going to completely disappear one day...and never come back.

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